I don't even know what I'm feeling anymore.
I can't stand being with my friends anymore.
I want to devote myself to Will and only Will.
I hope when he comes home we are closer than ever cause I feel like after this summer it really is going to be just us.
I'm still pretty depressed but Will is helping a lot.
I think I maybe bipolar.
Now don't get pissy with me.
Believe me I can't stand when people who act crazy are always like ahah it's because I'm bipolar.
I CAN NOT STAND IT.
But I swear I'm not just saying it.
My mother, aunt, cousin. and sister are alll bipolar.
So there is a chance that I can be.
It would explain myself lately.
Let's go over the facts.
Here's the top signs of bipolar disorder.
1.Severe changes in mood — either extremely irritable or overly silly and elated
-Ohmygoodness yes! Everytime anyone in my family (or even lately my friends) speak to me I flip out. I don't even know why.
2.Overly-inflated self-esteem; grandiosity
-Okay this one is a no. I will never have a high self-esteem.
3. Increased energy
-At times yes.
Decreased need for sleep — ability to go with very little or no sleep for days without tiring
-Yes yes yess. Key word there is days. It's happened.
Increased talking — talks too much, too fast; changes topics too quickly; cannot be interrupted
-I guess so? Can't say yes or no for this.
Distractibility — attention moves constantly from one thing to the next
Hypersexuality — increased sexual thoughts, feelings, or behaviors; use of explicit sexual language
-Surprisingly yes. I am a virgin but lately I have been thinking about having sex with Will. That's unusual for me.
Increased goal-directed activity or physical agitation
- I don't exactly understand what this one means. Someone explain?
Disregard of risk — excessive involvement in risky behaviors or activities
Anyone readers who are bipolar. Talk to me?