Thursday, August 19, 2010

Emotion: Unknown.

I don't even know what I'm feeling anymore.
I can't stand being with my friends anymore.
I want to devote myself to Will and only Will.
I hope when he comes home we are closer than ever cause I feel like after this summer it really is going to be just us.
I'm still pretty depressed but Will is helping a lot.

I think I maybe bipolar.
Now don't get pissy with me.
Believe me I can't stand when people who act crazy are always like ahah it's because I'm bipolar.
But I swear I'm not just saying it.
My mother, aunt, cousin. and sister are alll bipolar.
So there is a chance that I can be.
It would explain myself lately.

Let's go over the facts.
Here's the top signs of bipolar disorder.
1.Severe changes in mood — either extremely irritable or overly silly and elated
-Ohmygoodness yes! Everytime anyone in my family (or even lately my friends) speak to me I flip out. I don't even know why.

2.Overly-inflated self-esteem; grandiosity
-Okay this one is a no. I will never have a high self-esteem.

3. Increased energy
-At times yes.

Decreased need for sleep — ability to go with very little or no sleep for days without tiring
-Yes yes yess. Key word there is days. It's happened.

Increased talking — talks too much, too fast; changes topics too quickly; cannot be interrupted
-I guess so? Can't say yes or no for this.

Distractibility — attention moves constantly from one thing to the next

Hypersexuality — increased sexual thoughts, feelings, or behaviors; use of explicit sexual language
-Surprisingly yes. I am a virgin but lately I have been thinking about having sex with Will. That's unusual for me.

Increased goal-directed activity or physical agitation
- I don't exactly understand what this one means. Someone explain?

Disregard of risk — excessive involvement in risky behaviors or activities

Anyone readers who are bipolar. Talk to me?


  1. i saw your comment and your a veghead to!!! i started last november im almost a year!!!

  2. I think you're just really stressed. You're no bipolar at all. When it feels like your life hits you the hardest, you can't do anything but try to cushion the hit. Be a little more open with us (me). I'm always here to talk and listen. Don't worry though. I'm in the sorrow boat as well right now.